Monday, May 20, 2013

Rough Draft of a Novel Opening


One
Lisa had seen him before.  The homeless man on the other side of the road as they were driving on the opposite side.  He was holding up a sign that said NEED MONEY TO MAKE IT BACK HOME.  In front of him he had a blanket laying upon the grass, but Lisa couldn't see what it was he was offering.   What struck her most was how young he appeared, and she immediately wondered what circumstances in life would have brought him to such a position.  She also thought that it could possibly be  scammer she had heard of people pretending to be struggling in order to earn some extra cash.  This was unacceptable in Lisa's eyes, not when people with very real problems existed in this world.  He had been there the whole summer.  If he was a fraud she figured someone would have found him out by now.  There were a few times that she caught sight of him playing a guitar sitting cross legged on another worn blanket strumming away.   She was never close enough to hear the music, just the motions.
"What do you see out there?"  Her father asked her.  He was riding shotgun and he was now blowing a puff of smoke out of the open crack of the window.
"A homeless guy.  He's young."
"Is he good looking?"
She turned toward him playfully for a moment, "He's homeless."
"They are people too you know."
"You know what I mean."  She shook her head and kept her full line of sight on the road ahead.  She flipped her turn signal on and moved to the right most lane before turning the blinker on again to pull into the gas station.
"We're gonna be late to the movie you know?"  Her father reminded her.
Lisa pulled up to a pump and went about the business of selecting the unleaded fuel and removing the gas cap.   She sighed as she watched her money tick away cent by cent, and dollar by dollar.
The passenger window was going fully down, and her father flicked the cigarette out onto the pavement and stuck his head out the window to look back at her.  "Hurry.  We have maybe five minutes."
"We're only going to miss the previews?  She reminded him as she returned the nozzle, and replaced the gas cap.
As she rushed passed him he said, "Best Part."
Inside she was relieved to see there was no line.  She told the clerk the amount and swiped her card, and was no sooner rushing back out to the car.   The engine turned, and she put the car in drive and they were off again.
"That's gotta be  a record."  Her father said.
"I know right, there's no one out today."  After a stop light and a couple stop signs, and a few turns they arrived at the theater and Lisa began power walking to the front doors.   When she made it she turned around to see her father simply strolling toward her puffing on another cigarette.
"We need to hurry, we're gonna miss the previews, won't have any good seats."  She said imitating her father in an overly dramatic whiney voice.   He was smiling as he took yet another drag and he stopped next to one of the black tower ash trays and he slowly dragged on it again.   "I hope you know what a hypocrite you are."
He nodded and pushed the cigarette through the ash tray's hole.  "That's what your mom kept tellling me."
"It's not fair to bring her into this debate when she can't defend herself."
"I'm sure she's taking my side right now."  He pressed his index and middle finger to his lips and raised them up to the sky.

They were returning down the same route they had come before and had just passed the same gas station when her father started up again, "I'm not saying it was bad."
"I know."  She said slightly annoyed.
"It just could have used less of that computer generated crap."
"I agree."
"Then how did you like it?"  He said astonished.  He was opening his pack of cigarettes as they stopped at the traffic light.
"Hey, you had your three for the day."  Lisa said as she snagged the pack away from him.
"Are you counting the one I smoked before the movie, or whatever you call that shit."  He pointed at the theater somewhere off in the distance with his thumb over his shoulder.
"You're the one who chose to smoke them in such quick succession, don't put that on me."  Lisa stuffed the pack into her coat pocket as the light turned green.  They were in area of the local mall, a big yellow Best Buy sign hung from the outer wall of the building on their right, and on their left the first entrance to the mall and a traffic light ahead.   This one was on yellow but the car ahead had been going to slow to make it through it before it turned red.  The car ahead went through anyways and received the annoyed sound of car horns from the cross traffic.
"Dumbasses."  Lisa's father remarked.
"Mmm-hmm."  She agreed.  Her eyes were then turning to the divider in the mall parking lot where the homeless man had been standing with his sign.  He wasn't there.   She looked down at the clock and showed 5:15 in faded green numbers.  It made sense that he wouldn't be there she figured, she seldom seen him out there after four.
"It's green."  Her father said, and then an car horn honked behind her to tell her as well.  She continued driving.  "Something on your mind?"  He asked her.
"Nothing, just zoning out I guess."  She smiled timidly and kept her eyes forward.
"Need to stop smokin' the pot.  Drugs'll do that to you."
"And you'd know first hand, wouldn't you?"
"Of course, weed, coke, uppers, downers, shrooms, you name it I done it."  Her father began rolling his window down, "But I didn't know what it did back then till I tried it.  Now that I know you can't."
"But you had fun first?"
He shook his head, "Doesn't matter, I didn't in the end.  So you don't get none."
"You're depriving me of valuable life experiences you know."  She said as she turned down a side street.
"Why do you need to have those?"
The home was about five miles from the mall and they pulled into the driveway sometime soon after.   As they stepped of the car her father said, "You know i've never done coke right?"
"Yes daddy I know you've never done coke."
"You still can't though.  If you think you will you have to let me test it first."  He shut his door and they walked up the steps of the porch.   "I did like that one scene, with the girl."
"Sure you did, she showed her tits."  She turned the key, "Why wouldn't you like that?"
As they stepped inside he continued, "I haven't liked just tits since I was in high school. And no it wasn't that scene, it was when she beat the shit out of that guy in the space station."  He said seriously as he threw off his jacket on the back of a dining room chair.
Lisa did the same with her coat on a different chair.  "What do you want for dinner tonight?"
"Are the options the same as last night?"
"If by the same you mean spaghetti or spaghetti.  Then, yes, its the same as last night."
"Both those options are horrible, spaghetti it is then."  He went to a cupboard and pulled out a pan and filled it up with water.  He twisted the dial on the stove and the flamed ignited on the burner and he placed the pot on top.  As he passed her, as she grabbed a box of spaghetti, he placed his hands on her shoulders and kissed her cheek, "My work here is done.  I'm gonna watch American Idol."
Lisa sighed.  "Why do you watch that crap?"
"Because I had dreams once darling, I had dreams once."  He said as he pulled out a can of beer from the refridgerator.  "I'll make sure to turn the surround up so you can hear every last note."
"Let me grab my headphones first."  She was turning the can opener on the spaghetti sauce can, when that was done she dumped the contents in another pot and placed it atop a burner that she then switched on.
On the other side of the wall she heard the familiar voice of Ryan Seacrest and she sighed again.  "He likes hot young girls beating the shit out of people, and blood and guts, but he likes American Idol."  She said to herself, "That makes perfect sense."  Soon the water was boiling, and she poured the spaghetti in.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Under the Flaring Nostrils of a Delinquent Dreamer

Some place slightly out of touch is the place where the passion brings the dusk
On the other side of a sealed door a mountain waits unanswered
The challenger throws up his gear and scales the face,
And shreds the hills and demands a place,
Upon his imminent return.
Some time later on the same ole same ole smoky little hill,
The doors remain unhindered rusting away just the same,
And the challenger still continues his trek onward,
But he will not make it all the way there,
No there is but naught to be done,
Try as he may and he truly shall,
Tomorrow will not come,
Not for him,
Not for I,
Or you.
Still he'll try it,
The door always ready to be tried,
Just the task of making it all the way to the end,
Just the road that must be traversed waiting to be trodden,
Just this matter of commiting a ritual suicide, just as easy as pulling out a single cigarette,
He scales the mountain his climbing axe punctuaring the side so swift and brutally,
It is a strange wonder that the mountain does not spew out a fountain of blood,
The ruby jewel of life from the inner workings of the challengers throat,
But alas it will not be, he cuts into rock easier than he woudl cut flesh,
And all his blows are pinpoint precise and deep,
Again he thrusts his axe forward and connects,
Again he finds a place to put a foothold,
Against the wind he transcends,
But he does not open the door.
It is a boy some time later,
Who is of little consequence to this scene, who makes his way up the mountain side, but then goes horizontally forward, and not skyward in this challengers vertical fashion,
It is this child who opens the door,
Because he was simple enough to look under his nose,
Enlightenment is not in the heavens,
It is in the mountain,
Through that which is here,
If you look inbetween the crevices,
You'll see it,
Right there.

An Eye Towards When

When the light falls into the final sleeping hours
When but a shadow is fitted weakly upon a white wall
When the children plan to see the next tomorrow with a smile
When the parents plan it all just as they one and the same
When the dreams dance about in their little tiny minds
When the nightmares come creeping where they may
When knights slay dragons and people demand justice
When it is swift and decisive and the right is done
When all seems fitting and
When all seems fit
When this light flickers and the shadows creep a bit
When woman demand respect
When men demand reverence
When the battle torn nation slinks off to hide and cry
when the torn apart teddy goes one more day in the drink
When the slaps and the abuse go hand in hand with the shakes
When the lights come up
When it all remains as it was
When the fantasy invades a reality
When the simplicity commits complexity
When the meak inherit and the strong suicide
When warships and little jet planes drop the atom on the world
when the shadows consume this all
When the fires burn bright
When the fire burns bright,
There is still always a light.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Towards a Journey's Ending

the little man rushed through the valley
and tried as he may he never found the end
through thickets and thorn bushes
he stumbled and he fell
he gathered back though
and he journeyed forth some more
as the winter fell
the snow was soft upon his brittle bones
as he was starved and sleek and weak
through those long and treacherous winters
the strength that remained threatened to leave him
but he saw an ending closer than he could see his beginning
so he trudged and he pushed each step out
and before long he was no closer than the last
and when the thaw came
he sighed and fell over and slowly he seemed to die
but as the sun rose he awoke in a bed,
with doctor and a nurse by his side
they asked him what he was doing there
where most men would have returned from
and all he said,
I do not know, but I had to try.