A lone house fly settled on a window pane. It stared about itself confused that it was confined. Just on the other side of this invisible wall he could see the vibrantly green grasses of a new summer day, and he longed for the freedom to travel from blade to blade. Halted was his progress as his suction like feet stuck and removed themselves from this glass prison, as he strolled up and down the frame. The heat of the sun was evident on his underbelly, as it caressed and warmed him he felt heartbroken at his situation.
On the other side of him was a room. Used by the humans he had pestered over night as he was lost in the dark. When he buzzed near them to get direction they swatted at him, and when he persisted with his pestering they attempted to flatten him with a yellow swatter attached to the end of a white thin stick. It was fearful being trapped in here, and he hoped at some point his force field would vanish and cease to be. When that event occurred he could remove himself from this hostility and be agile and free through endless airs.
Within this prison he saw shadowed walls. Lifeless shelves and black boxes elevated upwards. Black boxes that showed bright lights that reminded him of the summers light, but contain only hopeless cold. The human beings were irritated by his attempt to pass into this portal and were keen on destroying him. He of of course had wised up and buzzed about that room several times, and onto the stank of a the sofa they had been sitting on and while it was rather arid it calmed him reminding him of his outdoor surroundings.
The lone house flies eyes darted about him seeing and feeling the sunny day, and dreaming of feeling it in its entirety about his whole self. His wings twinged at the thought, fluttered a moment and he buzzed out and into the window hoping that with just the right about of pressure he might escape. Alas it did not work and he only succeeded in causing injury to himself. An injury that pained him as he fell like a leaf to the windows edge. There was an eager fear in him. Even as he sat there upside down his legs kicking up into the empty spaces before him, he could feel himself getting older.
Even he knew his life was a short one, and every second of it amplified, every breath he took a quicker one. It was as though life was speeding passed him, and he could not stand that he aged here within this angered room. Soon he found himself back on his feet and he buzzed his wings and paced the length of the window ledge.
This indeed had been his final window in the house to attempt. After all the other failed escapes, after all the other pointless wandering he had to get out by this way. There was no other chance for him, this was his final course of action. He paced in panicked hurry. Up and down he moved the length of the ledge, before looking up at the transparent wall and in heated defiance he hurled himself at the hard surface. Once, and then twice, and a third time for good measure. Each time beating his head against in in pained thuds.
It was unfortunate though that in his irritable panic that he buzzed continuously. It was also unfortunate that the small human boy was now curiously walking toward him and the buzzing noises he made in frustrated attempts at breaking the barrier. As he longed for the green and bright warmth of the outdoors the small child reached out his thumb and forefinger and the poor fly was snagged back by its wings.
In vain attempts he kicked out his feet, and tried to stab at the large sweaty human fingers with his sucker but nothing worked. His eyes darted left and then right, and up and down and all about him but there was no one else. He called out with harsh buzzes and kicked out his feet as he was carried from the window, as he was carried away from the sights of green, and the heated rays of the sun.
The boy pressed the house fly down onto the kitchen counter, not squishing him but making sure as not to let him escape. And then with what only seemed to take a millisecond in human time, began to take minutes within the flies mind, his wings were torn away. He felt the fibers of his flesh all warm and sticky being yanked from the tough surfaces of his hide. He heard the fleshy sound of them being torn away, and it pained him so. In his panic he tried to flutter them but it began to hurt worse and he realized they were now entirely gone. The boy removed his fingers and the fly kicked and rolled.
The fly attempted everything to stave off his inevitable demise. He still had half a life to live, he still had flowers to visit, bee's to insult, he still had birds to avoid. He rolled about on the counter and kicked and screamed unable to buzz his curses at the boy who was now rubbing the remainder of the wings into dust between his chubby fingers. Then the fly felt hopeless and kicked once more.
His big bug eyes looked on about him, looking up defiantly towards the sunny outside. Just a few feet from him he could see the sunlight entering into that heartless human home and he just wanted to feel it one more time. In pained moves he rolled about several times till he found his feet below him and he took steps towards the edge of the counter. It was just within view and he could make it, he had to feel that summer heat, he had to feel it and then he could spend his last moments dreaming of an eternity of open spaces. Dreaming of the green and dirt. Seeing his offspring well fed and on their way to their pathetic little lives. Then as if by a miracle he felt strength return to him, and he moved faster, his drive was clear. Just these thoughts of dreaming pushed him ever closer to this goal.
Then the fat sweaty thumb of the human boy came down hard on the flies back and with a crack and squish his guts were splattered on the wooden surface.
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Friday, July 25, 2014
There's a place called tomorrow that keeps me all starry eyed
A place where if I stare long enough I'm brought to the sunny side
But my eyes seldom burn and my feet begin tapping
Where the world is on a silver platter with any cuisine for the trapping
Dissecting and digesting the delicatessen of a dozen places
Being able to sit idly and admire a dozen faces
Without so much a care in the world and all will come true
In that place called tomorrow that is seen by too few
There's a placed called tomorrow that makes me scared as hell
Where children scream and people kill, where all of the broken angels fell
In the midst of propaganda and new world orders
Where people are crucified and demonized for crossing the borders
In the blank slates they fill in evil tarnishment
That terrible men took great care to invent
By the time I even open my eyes I feel the warm red on my face
And if only it were the case I'd escape from that place
There's a place called tomorrow that was a lot like today
And I got through that, and I came out pretty okay.
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
There was a whole hell of feeble hands
Men and women who couldn't tend to children
Who were deemed unfit to stand
And when the time came
They all, each and everyone caved
Gave up their loved ones
Gave up their souls
Just to make it through till tomorrow
Maybe its a little too much too late
Maybe its a tad too long to think
But the many notions that procreate this world
Tend to fall to the wayside
Of every other story ever told
And in this feeble handed hellhole
The demons glide over all
Pondering the splendorous places
That better men had died
Taking too long to delegate the construct
Feigning their ignorance all over the places
Where no one will look twice at their faces
Trying their hardest to not only build the ship
But make it twice as better
But its only a row boat
And will always be
Wasting time trying to add a shine to a shit
Listing off timid concerns
Only to have the world fall apart
Give back to the laughing stock
Take part in its absolution
I am ashamed to be abominable
I am ashamed to breathe.
Friday, July 4, 2014
If perchance tomorrow you fail to wake
I'll have three drinks for your sake
As I think of all those times
We broke all those rules and committed non-violent crimes
Dissected our minds
And collected old dimes
In the rear view mirror I see you
I can't help but think I said it too few
That you meant so much to everyone
No matter how out of control life spun
To too little and too much fun
Through memories you'll continue to run
Around in circles
About in diagonals
Among the squares
Aboard triangle shaped ships
We're we shared lovely little sips
From strong mixed drinks
That we'd pour down sinks
Unable to stomach the bitterness
While we smiled and we kissed
If perchance tomorrow you fail to wake
I'll go on sleeping and just fake
That you're even gone
My mind will wander into song
All the day long
Hoping I made you smile more than frown
As we took our laundry out to town
I wore an asshole crown
You wore a prima-donna gown
And if cataclysms are our calamities
We'll light off our fireworks in ten thousand cities
Hurting each other than kissing wounds new
And they will look on confused
If perchance tomorrow you fail to wake
I don't know how much more I could take
How I'll handle swimming alone in a lake
Or eating a single piece of my birthday cake