Teardrops of Rain

She dreams of everything under the sun
And then she dreams of it once more
All the while, the sun goes down, and night comes home, again

Maybe im sorry for the way you cry
But I can't make promises
Till the day I die

So many people, so many faces,
So many ways to go through pain
If everything I said to you,
Would only bring you home.

Maybe its time I change the song
Change the way we hear the tune
Familiar guises out to fool,
A million for a million prizes that don't mean a damn thing

And in time,
It'll be okay

And in time,
I will find my way

Through the darkest window, that you never knew could be

Do you hear the sound of pitter patter rain drops on the wall
the sound of heated argument that permeates the halls
This is no time for whispered confessions
But I time for hollowed souls
 They snuck in and snuffed our joys out 

Quick Reviews of Movies I Didn't Write About Yet

If im not mistaken the last movie I wrote about was X-Men First Class.  So since i've seen pretty much all of the big movies this summer lets do a quick mini recap.

Super 8 - awesome: the movie is an homage to E.T. Spielberg, and it works, all the kids in the movie are great in their performances, and its creepy and funny at the same time, though to be honest i was a little underwhelmed with the monster.
Transformers Dark of the Moon - Pointless Awesome: Since the 2nd was so abysmal, I wasn't expecting much from this 3rd part, but I was surprised, sure the plots stupid, sure lots of shit gets blown up, but it was good, and entertaining, and as far as a michael bay movie goes it was great.  I loved it. 
Captain America - better than expected: extremely amusing, and humorous, with some interesting plot points, and good acting.
Cowboys and Aliens - from greatness to mediocrity: the first 20 - 30 minutes are the best and then it goes into routine alien invasion movie territory, but very well done nonetheless.
Horrible Bosses - Hilariously dark - just as i've said, i laughed my ass on, all the actors surprise you, and excel in this movie which has some great set ups and pay offs. watch it!
Rise of the Planet of the Apes - exceeds expectations: just saw this one, it was a lot better than i expected, and kind of scary, but i was invested in the story of the chimp caesar, very good stuff, and hats off to the motion capture team and andy serkis for making the ape a worthy protagonist.
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2 - Great but emotionally underwhelming for a finale.  not much else to say about it, it was another well done, and entertaining harry potter movie, nicely wrapped up but i left wishing there had been more to it.

Confusion in Confusion

I am utterly and completely perplexed by your riddles, and i fail miserably with your quizzes.
But why test, why condition to sensen into nothingness.  this isn't fair
life isn't fair they say they say this is the way it is
everyone is selfishly looking for their own happiness
there own pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, a calm in the storm clouds
i am utterly and completely perplexed in your features, and I fail miserably with my convictions
through your conditioning i have known more nothing, and assume nothing in everything
You are beautiful, and seems wise, but behind your eyes though i dutifully serve, I see a wrack of wrath, of pain and misery
you are abandoned in your loneliness, and even your loneliness wants to abandon you
you eat soft serve on a hard boiled plate of chalices, and you never think twice while your voice spits out instruction
But i do not mean any of it as insult, I do not mean any of it as hatred, though at the same time, it isn't all compliment, sometimes its none of the above, sometimes it just is as it is
And through the fire, and through the brimstone, through the self depracating pain that you have failed god, you live a life away from him,
Your voice produces verbs that do not reconcile the soul, but damn it into question, into confusion,
your voice is beautiful, but bears serpent fangs, its lethal and soothing, its terrible and great
you are like a god here,
and although i do not worship you, i do hope to praise you in pieces, that i may be rewarded, cause in truth i care
I care what you think, what you say, i listen with eyes wide open and ears peeled,
Listen on the edge of my seat, while relaxed and reclined back against my comforter
But is it fair, i've seen it heard it a dozen, a thousand, a million times back and forth in my chamber, echoeing against the walls, echoing into eternity,
You are everything i want, and nothing you say can change it
I've botched the words, I've botched the emotions, but time has passed, storms have come, and storms have gone, the sun lingers only till the moon can replace it
and through all these shifts in shifts, I am utterly and completely perplexed in my confusion
I am terrified by this conundrum this puzzle that i shall never be able tp iece together,
But in those eyes, and in those breaths you are everything that makes llittle to no sense, and why should that be bad, or wrong,
Is not a person a complex thing, are not feelings of love or lust perplexing in their very nature, the human condition trying to be seperated from zoology evolutions, and tampered with animalisic miscontent.
Don't worry one day i'll explain it, it'll come out in pure fashion
and honest to god truth broken like a beer bottle on the sidewalk,
And while choirs sing, you'll be praying while straddling to sexed up music, you the contradictory station on this perfectly flawed world,
That i love.

Forgive me if I seem a little irritated with the way you've been thinking.  All your life you've been pushing and pushing for a change for some sort of satisfaction in unsatisfactory circumstances.  And all this time, through all this life you've been leading, there was not one simple inexplicable thing that drew your attention for one solitary moment.  It was a scatter shot blast from a rusted old shotgun, reliable but filthy, this was how I pictured your version of your future.   You wanted it all, but could only access the strength to play with the fragments.  Don't take this as an insult, however, you should not take as some sort of compliment, if it were one it'd be the most minimal, the most abysmal sort of compliment.  It'd be the type of compliment that one shrugs forward and mumbles with irritation through gritted teeth and jealousy.  I am jealous, this I cannot hide, because in your hopes for your future that oil spill atop the water, where your tasks never go together, where your contradictions abound I saw something that didn't so closely resemble a life led by rote.   For now I feel suctioned in all the time, all the hours of my days, suctioned into the motions, im stuck, a scum sucker on the bottom of the fish tank.  I remember believing you though, when you said my future wasn't written, that fate wasn't worth a load of trash, I just wanted to become so much more than what I was and you took my hands and you promised i would.  You promised that if the world was worth it to me, I could own it, possess its beauties and live a life of complete and utter bliss.  But dream on you liar, you thief of virtues, you spouter of so much wonder and dreams, this isn't how it all works.  and in the end I probably like that it isn't so much a cookie cut out, as it is a strand of interconnecting rivers, while you search for the connecting strands in your philosophy i will live life the only way I know how and simply hope for happiness in the dream house of an absent reflection.